I WONDER ...

If you are wondering if you have made a difference in someones life, YES.

If you are all alone and you wonder if there is anyone out there who feels the same, YES.

If you know God loves you, but sometimes you dont feel His prescence and wonder if He cares... YES...
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I have many times sat alone in my room asking myself so many questions:

Where has my energy gone?, Why would give me such a great desire for kids and then not be able to have them?, Have I told my family I loved them enough?, Will I be as blessed this year as I was last?, Could I get an happier? Even, could I be any sadder?

I have come to realize that every little teeny thing that happens, every day of my life, comes together to form who I am. Arguments with anyone, helping others, learning to express my anger, teaching children respect, meeting new people and even disliking them, putting a smile on a strangers face, hugging someone I love and feeling it like it was the first time, making myself do something outside my "comfort zone" and then actually enjoying it....

You know what I think about alot? I think about God and what He feels when he watches me daily. For example, when I get up in the morning and get so rushed, what is He thinking? I wonder if He smiles when I go to the beach & feel the warm sand in between my toes. When I hurt because someone makes fun of me or says something hurtful, what does He do? How does He feel? When I help someone in need & then KNOW that I will be struggling to help myself... I wonder then as well.... When He watches me daily and I pray to Him, does He feel the love I have for Him? Does my family know that I make mistakes and that it is ok too? I bet God smiles when I feel the "warm fuzzies" in my heart when I think about my love for my husband. I love God's arms...

All these questions I ponder upon day to day, but I know God is in control and I am not the only person with these questions.

Lets enjoy the little things in life: puppy dogs, sunshine on your face, water on your feet, a childs hand in your hand, your mother and fathers hand in your hand.

All of these things are gifts from God because He loves us. Take his hand, his nail-scarred hand and thank Him.

He is worthy of our praise!

Love in Christ,
Tara